Childlike Trust

I must have read, written and expressed what I understand by Trust

But...a recent life experience has given me

A broad bible based perspective on trust

Trust they say is earned but that's not with God

Trust is to faith what blood is to life...

What do you do when you wake up one morning

And everyone seems to understand what's going on but you

Some attribute it to depression borne from stress and boredom

Especially related to post natal depression

Yes i had been stressed maybe doing too many things at once

But not depressed...

Moreso I just realized i spend little time with God

Reading the word 

Little wonder my fuel tank flashes red

Sometimes the word within is what sustains us

But then Grace is what empowers us to do the word

Yes I was willing, love God no doubt but at that point

It seems the imbalance was as a result of removing Christ

From the centre of my life

Or better still moving things away from Him

Sometimes it feels like you still have a grip

Until life taps blows u back to consciousness

However heavenly father never let go of the firm grip

Like Emmanuella who is totally dependent on her parents

So am I now...I hope in reckless abandon

Sometimes i still wanna scream what is happening???

P and I had been having arguments lately

Wondering if we still friends or strangers

But in helplessness or weaknesses

We find God's strength

I have asked myself if I married the wrong man

Or should have gone to convent school 

Like i desired as a child :) ;)

But it isn't any of those...

It is a season of  test, loving reprimand, rosy thorns

Embedded with lifetime lessons, lessons, lessons