Wednesday 11 April 2012

Simplicity- We met by chance

Dear Blog,
Remember His protocol...its in the final phase right now
Makes me wanna pull out every strand of my hair...
But am blessing God for the finished work he started...
It is finished! Done deal BGG

okay so i took a break and decided o visit my not so popular yahoo mail
Look who i found online..Bolaji
Lol..ok,so i met him at a aptitude test centre..he later told me tho
I was busy writing this test and hoping i get a steady job shortly before i completed NYSC way back in 2007

I noticed our invigilators,but there was this particular one who came to collect my test...i didn't finish before my time was up tho...
And i didnt get to the next interview phase too..lol
Ok,so i got a mail from this guy sayg he was one of the invigilators from d aptitude test and he just couldn't help contacting me...he is so attracted...gosh!
How on earth could he be so unethical..told him i could sue him for getting my details in such an illegal manner..and that i wasn't interested in the job!!! Even if i was being considered,what audacity???

Well,there was something very simple,gentle and easy going about Bolaji's response..there and then i knew we will be friends..
Bolaji checkd me at work one day and that was how we became friends..for a yr plus
He obviously wanted more...take home to mama and all sorts but right from day one till now ...my feelings and response didn't change but he was that brother i never had
5 yrs later....we did chat,he's settled down with a son,lucky woman i must say and lucky boy too
But Bolaji remains a special friend
We quickly reminded each other about the simple way we met,his undying love for indian films and songs,hahahaha
Tho i didn't tell him this, i rmember when Bolaji once called and knew i was very ill...rushed straight to d clinic, brought me home -rushed to get groceries from his car...my normal -thanks,but No! quickly embraced him
lol...omg,dat day he insisted sayg.."ok Toyin,i agree,u don't wanna go out with me,but am not doing this cos of that, I JUST CARE"

He sounded reprimanding for the first time..and Bolaji is one guy i respect..i could be with him for a couple of hours just comfy...he only reminds me abt the proposal in btw and quickly adds 'no pressure'
I see it in his eyes,i sense it in his gesture but my answer remained No! And yes he respects my stance as well as my body too...No tapping current either stylishly or deliberately

The most popular question...

Why...did i say No? Relationship when we met was a No! no! Just broke off with my ex and i wasn't just ready
Besides,the fact that i couldn't be convinced otherwise shows we aren't meant for each other

One thing i knew...if Bolaji continues this way..a lucky,virtuous lady's prayer has been answered just around the corner...
A yr afterwards,Bolaji was transfered to Lagos....we did chat a couple of times.Told me he was in a relationship and not too happy but told him i'l be prayg for him.
Years after...now....he's happily married with a son..asked how many kids i have now,i smiled and told him am not there yet but it's probably his turn to keep praying for me...quickly reminded me of his popular lines..and nickname 'W.M'
Amen! i actually felt lifted...cos den i had some hard to describe 'look where u are' thoughts on my mind-But i know its the lie of the enemy, Quickly used my sword to debunk it-He makes ALL things beautiful IN ITS TIME!!!

Life is simple...we meet our good friends by chance and they end up beautifying our lives forever.
Now am not in the habit of keeping in touch with guys i know liked me at one point or the other..Bolaji won't be an exception..but we sure will remain friends as far as there is a need for such discrete communication.

I am thankful dr God for all my friends..but i  will like to meet that special one i never have to say goodbye to and when the time comes i know u will give me a permanent clue(chuckles)...until then,i patiently wait....
serving...joyful...trusting like a child i am in ur sight dear father....mwaah

Sunday 1 April 2012

The space between us(Building 429)

My darling Lord, seems av been too busy for u... tho some lines fit into romantic realities but i miss u most...times when i don't check the time in ur presence,i just enjoyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyy u-me time,i can't seem to remember,been a few days and i miss u Pls erase it and bring us back togethr again
Here goes those lyrics that speak my mind..

Look at my heart again
Look at the mess I've got it in
I'm trying to trust in You
To know that you'll see me through
Through my pride
Through my shame
Into Your love
Into Your grace
I'm not looking back
Till I see Your face
And I'm running straight to You
Because

All I really want to do is to fall into
The emptiness that is
The space in-between us
To break this division
All I really want to do is to fall into
The emptiness that is
The space in-between us
Erase it and bring us together again

My life's like an open book
Nothing is hidden when you look
You break through my boundaries
Revealing my insecurities
But through my pride
And through my shame
You show me love
You show me grace
I'm not looking back
Till I see your face
And I'm running straight to you
Because

Here I am saying I need you
I know I need you
Here I am, I'm coming to meet you
Cause I want to see you