I must have read, written and expressed what I understand by Trust
But...a recent life experience has given me
A broad bible based perspective on trust
Trust they say is earned but that's not with God
Trust is to faith what blood is to life...
What do you do when you wake up one morning
And everyone seems to understand what's going on but you
Some attribute it to depression borne from stress and boredom
Especially related to post natal depression
Yes i had been stressed maybe doing too many things at once
But not depressed...
Moreso I just realized i spend little time with God
Reading the word
Little wonder my fuel tank flashes red
Sometimes the word within is what sustains us
But then Grace is what empowers us to do the word
Yes I was willing, love God no doubt but at that point
It seems the imbalance was as a result of removing Christ
From the centre of my life
Or better still moving things away from Him
Sometimes it feels like you still have a grip
Until life taps blows u back to consciousness
However heavenly father never let go of the firm grip
Like Emmanuella who is totally dependent on her parents
So am I now...I hope in reckless abandon
Sometimes i still wanna scream what is happening???
P and I had been having arguments lately
Wondering if we still friends or strangers
But in helplessness or weaknesses
We find God's strength
I have asked myself if I married the wrong man
Or should have gone to convent school
Like i desired as a child :) ;)
But it isn't any of those...
It is a season of test, loving reprimand, rosy thorns
Embedded with lifetime lessons, lessons, lessons
