Wednesday, 29 July 2015

Childlike Trust

I must have read, written and expressed what I understand by Trust
But...a recent life experience has given me
A broad bible based perspective on trust
Trust they say is earned but that's not with God

Trust is to faith what blood is to life...
What do you do when you wake up one morning
And everyone seems to understand what's going on but you

Some attribute it to depression borne from stress and boredom
Especially related to post natal depression
Yes i had been stressed maybe doing too many things at once
But not depressed...


Moreso I just realized i spend little time with God
Reading the word 
Little wonder my fuel tank flashes red
Sometimes the word within is what sustains us
But then Grace is what empowers us to do the word

Yes I was willing, love God no doubt but at that point
It seems the imbalance was as a result of removing Christ
From the centre of my life
Or better still moving things away from Him

Sometimes it feels like you still have a grip
Until life taps blows u back to consciousness
However heavenly father never let go of the firm grip

Like Emmanuella who is totally dependent on her parents
So am I now...I hope in reckless abandon
Sometimes i still wanna scream what is happening???
P and I had been having arguments lately

Wondering if we still friends or strangers
But in helplessness or weaknesses
We find God's strength

I have asked myself if I married the wrong man
Or should have gone to convent school 
Like i desired as a child :) ;)
But it isn't any of those...
It is a season of  test, loving reprimand, rosy thorns

Embedded with lifetime lessons, lessons, lessons


Honest thankfulness- A tasty punch for my king

I glanced through previous posts
All laced with thankfulness
Either as main course or desert

Today its a tasty punch
Honest thankfulness
Mixed with naked feelings
Yet overcome by praise

That I am alive and sound
Hubby,daughter, family
Friends and Foes
Sooo Thankful
The latter crucial to witnessing 
Table set in their very presence

Sometimes I wanna scream
God what's all these madness
I suddenly realize I am acting the devil's script
Right in the middle of the madness
Responding to his satanic remote
Of restlessness, confusion, doubt and hopelessness

Daddy God quietens my soul with His love
Pure, affectionate, ageless, timeless
"Baby, i got your back" he whispers
Let go and Let me
Its all for my glory
And your refinement
Yes I am not done with you
Never will

so here's the punch recipee
(Thankfulness+prayer+supplication)-(Anxiety+worry)= Peace punch
So does God need the peace punch??? 
Remember when daddy says Toyin, pls do something for me
Start packing for your journey so you don't stress last moment
It was actually for me but made in honour of His word
Daddy I love you so much
You are the centre of my affection my first love
Thank u,thank u thank u thank u thank u

How does it taste daddy? 
So divine baby...i relish!!!



Be anxious for nothing but in everything by prayer and supplication with thanksgiving....Phil 4:6-7


Friday, 3 July 2015

Unpluckable!!!

Even though I walk through the valley of the shadow of death
I will fear no evil(how is such fearlessness possible?)
For thou art with me(lion of Judah, my redeemer,my love)









He who didn't spare His own beloved son
How will He not come through..
When the hireling seeks to pluck from the shepherd
Love so amazing, so divine

Can a woman forget her suckling child?
Not my Emmanuella
Yet even if I can forget due to human frailty
My heavenly father will never forget nor forsake His own

He beckons calmly at the sinner
Whisphers softly into wicked hearts
Waits patiently for repentance
Inspired by Agape love,no self interest

Such amazing God have i given my all to
Through Jesus Christ my Lord
I have no life asides Him
There is no good in me without Christ

I believe none of my heartstrings...
Will hold on to temporal things
So vulnerably till they are unplucked
From the good Shepherd.