Update...GBU

Dear Blog,
I'v got quite a number of things to share but i dont know where to start right now...  its been a mix of the good,bad and the ugly(GBU).
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Yaay!!! after the four hrs brk i got good news blog,Pp got her travel ticket at last,she's coming!!!
Then ..remember 'His protocol'..its moving to ethics November 1st. Pratically no weekend for me tho but also my acada days' gradually coming to an end
This semester has been one of a kind, Lucy Gilson needs her students to be telephatic in Health Policy and Planning and Di Mclantyre is ready to transform me into an Health economist 'overnight'

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So i got Helen's comments today and 'His Protocol' is finally moving to Ethics. Through the eyes of faith I see all crooked places being made straight already.yaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaayyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyy!!!!! TUJ

Am also likely to move back to Palm Mews next year...God's will be done but 'we'(of course HS and I) need a comfortable place to write up 'His thesis' trlalalalalalalalalalal school's almost over for now(chuckles!)

Ugly..my EHS assignment and HPP weren't good, 50% and 57% (I wanted to cry cos that means studyg hard and smart to make up in final exams)...okay so protocol took virtually all the time but that aint smart enuff..shld have prioritized accordingly...ding-dong(past tense)...Now am trusting God for wisdom as i study.

Tralala, i don't remember the ugly cos this good is sooo good, protocol almost over,Baba u are worthy!!!!
so i hooked up with BSY and BJY on BB,twas a nice re-union,we laffd,gisted, and all..now to d big question and she gave me her usually blunt but good advice...
K long after discussion...i just had to re-wind and snapped into the maybe,probably mood.Tolu was God-sent, she stretched her hand and pulled me up. The HS just reminded me of Father's promises and that All things work together for good.

Bad....early dis week i was so overwhelmed by guilt and all the should've would've. could've....it was just not easy looking forward,hind screen became much wider and wind screen shrank into oblivion.
Felt better when my friend encouraged and prayed for me...come blog,lemme whispher the name of this friend...i don't want anyone eavesdropping(lol). This took longer cos i just couldn't sleep,was rly down but somehow i knew HS was interceeding for me and maybe some good frds.. chuckles!!!

Bad too...i had a misunderstanding with a friend last night....WE need to make some critical decision HS,pls guide and direct.U reminded me all things work together for good to those who love God and are called according to His purpose and I am so joyous just trusting(I hope my friend is too). I can only see through the eyes of my father and all I see is good,not about a thing, person or event but the MASTER PLAN...For He alone knows the thought he has for each one of us, definitely good and not evil to bring us to an expected end..what is the expected end...TRUST. One thing is that at the 'expected end' swt HS will convince dat this is the 'expected end'. Until then...childlike,undaunted,unwavering trust..mode.

I miss u blog...but need to finish up 'Observation Grid for 'His protocol'.

Brb..don't know when tho...

Sandy pearls

Covered by stony sands

Characterised by rough edges

Some parts glowing with such unique radiance

Sandy pearls peeps through the door

Waiting to be let out

Shocked to be turned back

Refiner covers it with more sand and places it in fire

Oh how it hurts!

Please let me be 'it' screamed

Never gonna be perfect anyway

Refiner smiled seeing a radiant glow

His perfect reflection waiting to show

Tho oblivious of its radiant potential

Yet reminded of  refiner's tender care

Sandy pearls looked forward to

Being tagged "A pearl of great price"

Ready for the master's use...

(Mat 13:46)

  

Inspired by Joel Osteen's sermon : Developing your Pearl

Where's dat secretive (introverted) me?

It didn't feel like extreme babbling
Until i asked...
Feels like am being cajouled into babbling still
Followed by a dead silence
Jolted bk to reality...how much i miss d secretive (introverted) me
Although redundant...you av always been a loyal part of me

With open arms am welcoming u back to limelight
Please don't bring along d nuisance called 'pride'
Was happy to be rid of it...
Come as u are- pure and whole
Dat secretive introverted part of me!

Dear Blog

Dear Blog,
I am going through a phase right now...its so confusing
Met a new friend...(i know its no news but em...kinda cool)
Broke through my resistance of 'no extra time'
Not yet my heart tho...I am soo guarding it BGG

Ok, so he is just a friend oo,don't mind anyone sneering and saying otherwise,
Like jj who thinks am 'falling'
And Blessing who thinks am on the verge of 'falling'
Or Gladwell who thinks am just being conservative
Or Pp who thinks am silly...she says No LDF

(Above all the HS who knows every evry..lol)

Oh blog, do u think....? well...i hope not!
Well here's d deal,i kissed dating goodbye yrs ago,but i woke up recently and saw Dating snooping around my crib...asking to be let in..here's the big question: Did i kiss dating goodbye or goodnight???
I was so sure I said goodbye..with teardrops on my cheek
Dating...i had concrete reasons to bid u farewell and its still same,I haven't changed my mind
Just that time is too precious+my heart too treasured to keep wandering...
I know we'v had som 'fun-filled' adventure but i insist...goodbye dating!

D lounge is no longer available,HS and I are having business tea-break in d same longue
Bye dating...............byeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee

Brb dear blog,i need to finish up EHS assignment
More gist soon(wink*wink)

Lets Go!!!

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I remember reading the novel "Lady in waiting" 5yrs ago...thanks to Roh(miss u gal)
I made up my mind to be a lady of reckless abandonment to God...
I wish i could say I never looked back since but the first 3yrs was like a marathon race with silly stops...
At some point it appeared like a 'redundant state' even though my vow kept ringing in my ears
Would get up..put on my helmet of salvation+sword of the spirit;both dropped from from time to time
Prayer seems sometimes like a routine..a 'must do' every morning and 'sometimes do' at night
Then the breastplate of righteousness was under my box...an occassional wear
And the belt of truth was always on my waist with little or no effort to keep tightly fitted

Eish...i so relied on my own strength and principles.
Oops! the shield of faith was like a last resort...to quench the feiry darts of the enemy
Then... my evangelism sandals was most underutilized meaning I walked 'bare-footed'
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In the last 2yrs...I realized the place of Grace in the race!
More interested in cultivating my relationship with Christ into a sizzling daily romance than bearing the name 'His Bride'
Better than before although the road isn't free from twists and turns...
Only difference this time is my willingness to rely on,trust and obey Him...Not there yet,but not walking alone either.
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Gladwell-my sweet flatmate recently shared how the Bible records Jesus being worried (more than anything else) if he will still find FAITH on earth when he returns ...(How true!)
Here's the big question: Am I waiting with my lamp burning like when we first met?
Today, I woke up with 2Tim 3 ringing repeatedly in my head particularly the phrase in Mat 24 'The love of many will wax cold...in the last days'.
One of my inspiring friends I recently met gave me an insight as to why 'the love of many wax cold'
Not tarrying in the place of prayer and meditation to get a fresh anointing daily...sooo true!!!
The place of prayer isn't a remote location but the heart...do i mediatate day and night? Do I take a step further to observe and do what is written therein through the help of the HS?

My evangelism sandals needs to be strapped on my dainty feet ASAP...
The harvest is truly great but labourers are few
Wake up my spirit soul and body!
Wake up comrades!!!
But hold on oo... I can't go without His presence,His power and His promise.
These trio are only obtainable in the throne room...chill T,don't try moving a foot without these three
Like Moses: 'If u presence doesn't go with me,I aint moving an inch father'

Lets put on d whole armour of God(Eph 6:10-) The arm of flesh will fail us...Lets go prepared with our best friend,and navigator..the Holyspirit!

His...Protocol

As I looked through my research protocol...
Couldn't help but think there's still a lot to be done dotting the 'Is' and crossing the 'Ts'
Anyone who reads through should get a grasp of the study objective at least..
Wish it was that easy but got a 'perfectionist' as supervisor..good but that means more work
And a co-supervisor who happens to be one of the managers in charge of TBIC: the study focus
With a course convenor,who wants nothing less than a health systems research
Plus a co-course convenor..fresh from Wits..he has just concluded an 'award winning'case study

Various comments from the four intellectuals, how am i supposed to reconcile conflicting ideas/comments?
Well..I started, most times spending hours just brainstorming what,why,how,which....oh no!
It then occured to me the first question..why TBIC?Is my inspiring heart throb aware of every phase..
Is He being carried along? Oh no! i mentioned it passingly once or twice
I call him when am out of my wits end..and thats about all I remember doing

Hmnnn..He is so gentle and meek,waiting to be invited right from the start..
Knowing the mind of each of the four supervisors,
He is able to harmonise their comments and ideas

He wants people to live free from infection...
Gave men wisdom to adopt such infection control measures
Still busy inspiring His beloved princess to explore such thematic area

Been through the mountains,valleys....
Moments of inspirational rush and brain fatigue
All the same..I need to bear in mind..it's His protocol..yes His!

And whatever is borne of God overcomes...
His grace is sufficient for me..His strength made perfect in my weakness

Can I trust you?

If after 18+ years of acquaintance, 9yrs of 'intimate' relationship tho xterised by brk up,make up phases
which ended up deepening the affection,creating more understanding and supposedly built trust and devotion...
Your soul mate looking so doubtful, fearful and lost spills these words: 'Can i trust u?'

 How would u feel? Betrayed, hurt, disappointed or humiliated...

Well, i just did and this time around He didnt wrap me in his arms to reassure me..
But in such rare combo of tenderness&firmness; turned my face towards his and declares...
Babe, I will always be there...its been 27yrs,isn't it time u let me into that innermost part?
I want all of u...
Let me handle it baby,
Before you were formed in ur mother's womb, i have always been there!
Where is that childlike trust?Who tampered with ur unwavering faith? What have you been focusing on lately?

Yes u can always trust me! Here is my grace..just sufficient for u Oluwatoyin.

I sobbed
Lost count on how many times i have doubted His ability through me
Inspired by His grace,i focus on the author and finisher of my 'undaunted' faith.